I’m kind okay with you out my life; I’m absotively, poslutely, almost alright.

I finally realized that some people just ain’t worth the tears, pain, or time.

I not to sure how it all happened or where it went wrong, but I wish I could change it. I wish she could she could see me down here on my knees asking for forgiveness and another chance. Not right now, not tomorrow, or not next month, just another chance to prove to her that I am getting better. I am growing in to the man she needs, the man that loves her unconditionally, will do anything for her, and the most importantly the man that knows he must stop the arguing. I wish I could have seen it sooner. I wish it would not have come to this, to make me see it, because now I am fearing that I have lost the best thing I have ever had. From day one she had me from hello. There was no if’s,and’s, or but’s about it. When she spoke to me, my heart crumpled into million pieces I pick them pieces up and put them together and gave my heart to her and with her it still is. She left a foot print on my heart and in my life that will never be replaced or filled. There is no one more perfect, sincere, or loving then her. I am truly sorry for the pain, the tears, and the fights. I hope you can see this. So this is to the good times. The times of sitting on the couch laughing at each other. The trip to the melting pot and laughing at me making the wrong turn, and singing at the top of lungs. The tickle fights and running around the back yard because of it. All the nights on the phone talking about the what if’s and days to come and the days past. Even thou it has only been 5 days. It has felt like a month. Each second creeps by. You have not stopped going through my mind and you never will. I told you that I would protect your heart and I failed for that I am sorry. Just please give me one more chance to prove myself to be a man and not a child. Please.

For the past five months I have been engaged in the most wonderful relationship in the world. The relationship is with someone who is so special to me and truly the woman of my dreams. Like all couples we have had our ups and downs, but at the end of the day their no one else to whom I would rather be in those moments with. She makes me smile like a little kid getting a puppy. She is my great escape from the world. Together we have faced mountains and storms that could destroy some relationships, but because of our love for each other we have pushed forward and grown stronger together. She has helped me come to pass so many things in past and I know she will always be there for me. Like I said she is my great escape. When I’m with her nothing else matters in the world but her. There is not the danger of tomorrow or the regrets of yesterday. Just the here and now along with your beauty. When I’m with here I feel as if I’m sitting on top of the universe. I’m most certainly blessed to have spent the past 5, most wonderful months of life with this amazingly awesome beauty young woman. God placed her in my life and I’m truly thankful for her, but what I did to get her I have no idea, but I’m sure glad I did it. So KCT here is to 5 months and many, many more!!!!! I love you so much!!!!!

In today’s America not people support the troops. Even thought they are fighting for mine, yours, and THEIR families’ freedom. This lack of support really ticks me off, but it makes me even madder this time of the year. Because where we are laying in beds dreaming of sugarplum fairies and presents, They dream of a hug from their family. But not many people care that the only thing that the Soldiers, Airmen, Marines, or Seamen want is to be home back in this great country that does not always stand behind them. For all those overseas I thank you. I support you for what you are doing. I support you as a man, brother, soldier, but most importantly an AMERICAN! I wish all overseas a Merry Christmas. This country owns this holiday to all y’all for fighting for freedom. My prayers are with all y’all and y’alls family. GOD BLESS!!!!!! 

Being in the military is hard enough. Losing close friends makes it harder. This goes out to friend, who I lost this week overseas. The place you had in heart will never me taken. You were there, thick and thin. You saw me at my worst and best. The pain I feel without you here will be numbed away, but never gone. You were my best friend, my role model, and most importantly a good leader. Its hard to believe that 2012 is knocking at the door. It does not seem like 3 years have gone since we first met. You made basic easy with you witty jokes and wise cracks about the cadre. Hearing the phrase “at easy” will never been the same. I’m sad that you had to go, but at least you are home now. And you died doing something you loved to do. Fighting for this country was you passion, besides hanging out with your family and friends, and hunting. I’m sad to see you go and I’ve cried over it, but I know you are probably looking down on me, saying stop crying and laugh. So sir this one goes out to you and your bravery! HOOAH!!! The memories we have made will not be forgotten or lost in time. Instead they will drive me to be the best I can be. You were and still are a good man, friend, husband, son, but most importantly a DAMN good leader! I only wish you would be returning with the rest of your men.

R.I.P SIR!!!!!

You know what amazes me anymore. The fact that seeing her beautiful face and talking to her in person for just ten minutes helps me get through the week with such easy. Its hard to believe that just at little amount of time she can affect how my whole week turns out. I’m guessing that because I love her so much!!!!!

I don’t know a lot of things. I’m just a simple country boy from way back in the woods. I have never claimed to smart or perfect. All I’ve ever wanted to be was a soldier and firefighter. I will probably never make a million or drive an expensive car or live in huge house. So how I got so lucky as to meet the most wonderful woman to ever walk this earth I’ll never know. How I got so lucky as to call her my girlfriend makes me stand and question. But I do know this I love her. I made her a promise tonight over the phone that I will forever (and I mean forever) keep. That promise was, ” As long as there is a breathe in my lungs, a beat, no matter how small or weak, in my heart. I’ll always be there for you. I’ll be your safety net and rock. I’ll protect you when your back is against the wall, I’ll comfort you uneasy, I’ll fight for you until I die. But most importantly no matter what happens I will always wait for you and be there for. And if I die before you, just know that you will have a bodyguard with you at all times, because I’ll become you guardian angel.” I meant every word of that. I’ve never been in love like this before and if I lose her, I know I’ll never be in love like this again. She is my heart and soul. Her voice clams the storm inside of me. She has washed away the memory of every other girl before her. She makes me feel complete and I want her to know that I love her. And even thou there is a lot of things in this world I do not know, I do know this and Forest Gump said it best, ” I may not be smart Jenny, but I know what love is.” So just know that when I say forever, forever is not enough time. I love you with everything I have and I want you to have my last name one day. You are a mess at times, but I do not care because you are my mess and I would not have it any other way in this world promise. Just remember the trouble with you KTC is I love trouble and you this BIG!!!!!!